I was having one of my chats with Miss Devina Cox, and my origin story came up.  Many of you know that I whipped my first slave into submission, long before I was 20.   He was a pain pig, but he was also my chauffeur and occasional maid.  He once brought me a dart gun, as a gift, to use on him.  That’s where I lost most of my squeamishness.  He gave me me space and didn’t need me to micro manage his life and that’s why it worked.  He was helpful, but more importantly, he was thoughtful.  I liked that he was a grown up, who could “wipe” for himself. That set the bar high for future lifestyle subs.  Older subs were less influenced by porn, because bdsm porn wasn’t mainstream when they were growing up.  It was hard to get your hands on.  Slaves would test themselves, in an almost tribal, right of passage way.  Bdsm was often about what you could endure, to show your devotion to your Mistress.  Most of the lifestyle applications I get, these days, are to lick my some body part, whether I like it or not and without and consideration of whether I find them attractive. Are we in prison, with a lack of options, where I have put a playgirl over his head and pretend he is that guy?  Now that’s a session I wouldn’t mind doing with a strap on!   Even during the great toilet paper famine of 2020,  I literally never thought that I need someone’s mouth to clean me.  Now, I have toilet paper and a high powered, detachable shower head, so that’s really not useful to me. They don’t see women see women sexually powerful, and capable of getting what they want, but rather some sexless neuter, incapable of using a man’s cock to get off and simply assume they have to settle for someone flicking their bean.  They have strong opinions on why I should want to be molested by them, and don’t seem to think women deserve to be with someone they choose and find attractive.  They are literally dictating what female dominance should be and all of it needs to beneFIT them.  Imagine a sub telling a male dom how he should act, what he should like and how he deserves to cum.  Not to mention,  there is a big difference between getting off and actually being satisfied.  Don’t get me wrong, I like oral sex, but it’s and appetizer orgasm (or two), and not the main event.  I could teach a course on how to get attractive, younger guys, who like being used for sex and have the best sex of your life.  I actually had a sissy suggest that I dump my favorite sex, who was the entire smart, sexy package,  in favour of the sissy wearing a strap on.  It get’s the better guy out of the way, so it can be about the sissy’s fantasy, but how does that benefit me?  Another one suggested that I use the fucking machine.  With all the amazing sex I’ve had in my life, a rubber dick is not going to turn me on.  I’d rather spend a weekend in Anderson’s tool shed with Beavis and Butthead.  The reason I love forced/encouraged bi, between subs,  it’s that it reminds you of your station.  You aren’t pleasing some imaginary alpha and you don’t deserve privilege of sucking a cock that has touched me, instead, you get a play date with your own kind, where you are sucking a slave or sissy, which is far more humiliating.  Obviously porn is making it hard for both sides to find a lifestyle relationship. I can tell you, from knowing a lot of women throughout my life, that when you use the word “slave”, they are picturing one of the guys from Spartacus, Blood and Sand, tanned, sweaty, muscular and able to stay hard for hours with arms strong enough to hold himself up long enough to make her cum over and over on his perfect sized penis.  It’s not a guy in a wig, with his head between her legs and no, they don’t want you to clean up another man’s cum.  That’s your fantasy.  The intensity of a bdsm session is not meant for everyday life and it’s not the remedy for being desensitized by porn.  Serving a woman as a lifestyle sub is about her pleasure and your sacrifice, not you talking her into settling and serving you.   I think that’s why I have such a spot for gooners.  They stroke and deny themselves for days, their cocks aching, the skin rubbed raw and they still stop short of cumming, letting out the sweetest groan and whimper of desperation.  I’ve heard that sound often, when someone was trying to give me “just one more” orgasm.  Imagine your cock being that useful to a woman?